Sunday, June 26, 2016


I have to talk about this, as I have been noticing for some time now that I seem to be manifesting at a greater speed than I ever have before.

I met an amazing woman last year who, when I told her how easily my book happened once I decided to write it, how the publishing contract landed in my lap, and then the promotional aspects pretty much found me (book launch venue, PR contacts, etc), she said "of course, you are a master manifester!"
I brushed it off, but that comment stuck with me. Whatever I think, seems to happen (good or bad). This is why it was so important to me some 10 years ago, when I was going through the most turbulent years of my life, to get my thinking sorted out. Manifesting only happens when your conscious and subconscious thoughts are in congruence. This can also be seen in "The Secret" (which is not simply just a wishful thinking lottery). And the power of positive thinking.

I often look back at that period, all the pain and hurt I caused myself and others, all came from broken thinking. I felt so unworthy of anything good, so pushed away with thoughts and actions anything that seemed to be good.

When I finally got my thinking sorted out (both conscious and subconscious), things just started happening easily and this has been accelerating in the last 3 years or so.

I had no evidence of this until this year, when I started to note when my thoughts became reality.

When I quit to start my business, I wrote a list of people that I knew through my networks that I would love to work with again. When I look at my list (written in a notepad last year) I can count all of those people who have contacted ME to work with ME. Rather than me having to pitch THEM, it's all just happened naturally, organically, and for the best outcome for both of us.

But that has been happening over the period of the last 12 months.

Last week I wrote in my diary which organisations I'd like to start working more closely with for Marrying Bipolar.

Have a look at the date below my note to contact these organisations - 20 June (Monday).

Now have a look at this Tweet from Jack Heath to my Twitter account yesterday.... Jack Heath is the CEO of SANE Australia. Look at the first name on my hand written note.

Now, is that manifestation, or what!?!

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Bad blogger

Hi all, I've been a bad bad blogger of late! So busy launching my book Marrying Bipolar (which went really well by the way), working an almost full-time role for my day job and building up Clevertype Services PLUS doing an SEO course to optimise my many different websites (okay, well just three of em).


Anyway. I have made the decision to decouple my personal blog from Marrying Bipolar. I couldn't quite get my head around what I should be blogging about and if it should be related to the book, so in the end that shows all that has done is confuse me (and probably confuse my audience).

This blog is for my flights of whimsy. I started getting all serious and 'in my own head' when I thought of this blog, and that's not what this blog was all about!

In fact, given its inception as a place for me to brain dump and get through some pretty serious issues, it's come a long long way, baby!

So stay tuned for what's coming up next. I will be revamping both the Notes from a Muse blog as well as Marrying Bipolar, and getting more strict on my own content creation.

Monday, January 11, 2016

VIDEO LAUNCH: Marrying Bipolar - What It's Like to Lose Someone to Suicide.

I am so so proud of this video. Almost prouder than getting my book published! This is a small snapshot of why writing this book was so important to me. While I explore all these themes of loss, denial, hopelessness, my own battles with depression and post traumatic stress disorder in greater detail within the book, actually speaking my truth has had such a powerful effect on me.

I was initially nervous about committing my thoughts to video, but I think the result is greater than I hoped it might be. We all deserve our voices to be heard, and I would like to thank my good friends Lyn Taylor, Nick Payne and Katie Garfoot for giving me such a wonderful and safe environment in which to voice mine.


Saturday, November 14, 2015

Focusing on what you have

I was asked to photograph my jewellery collection from a favourite label.
I went one better and got my entire collection out and it stunned me
how beautiful the whole collection is (and how few pieces I wear)

Making a resolution to wear at least one piece per day now.

Mumford & Sons

We have torrential rain in Sydney, and we are about to head out to see Mumford & Sons at The Domain....

But I have decided to dress up anyway!

I give you Exhibit A: outdoor live music ready to wear. Easy ponytail to avoid wet hair. Earphones with the band's latest tunes. Black obsidian necklace. Easy tunic featuring rustic folk pattern to suit both outdoors and M&S's brand of folk-inspired music. Rose quartz ring to display my lovin' 'tude towards the dude who bought these tickets for my 42nd birthday. Black thongs featuring glittery sides for both practical application in the wet, but also a nod to the glam outing (not shown).

Ready to rock! (and get wet)

Blog a day.... sometimes

I am not doing terribly well at this blog per day business. I am just going to call it and say I will try my best to post every day, but that may not happen all the time. Okay, even some of the time. Let me be very honest, I'm not great at follow through pretty much ALL of the time.

But I am trying, in my flawed human way, to be better. So like every other venture I have launched and then let fizzle, I am going to let myself off this hook this time, and promise "I will be better... I will try harder.... I will not try to be perfect and then stop doing what I love because I end up NOT being perfect."

Lotsa love to you if you are reading, and for me (who is writing this without the certainty that there is a "you" who is reading)

Au-jourd'hui Je suis Paris (aka sometimes gratitude is bloody hard)

Today the world woke up to terrible news. Multiple attacks on Paris, the city of love. Again the world wept and we asked "Why do these people exist?" We don't understand, we lash out at the wrong people, and many of us try and blame the victims for these awful events.

It's tough, under these circumstances, to find something to be grateful for. Being grateful for simply being halfway around the world from those who have been directly hit in these circumstances seems glib and rather selfish. Being grateful for those who help seems like we are trying too hard to find good in what is essentially good-less acts.

This meaningless loss of life and horror, all in the name of "my god is better than your god" is bloody horrible. And we should feel the horror.

Sometimes all we can do is keep these events in our hearts and minds and promise faithfully not to let evil beget evil.

Au-jourd'hui Je suis Paris.

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Day trippin'

No post yesterday as I was TOO BLOODY BUSY HAVING A GREAT DAY!

Early morning start for a day trip out to the Blue Mountains. I considered it a privilege having an excuse to take my day off on a random Tuesday and be the one who shows off our fair assets to the west of our city to a visitor from the UK.

We had a wonderful day exploring the Everglades Gardens at Leura, where I took every opportunity to try out my new-found knowledge on the DSLR camera. It was a blast. We feasted upon Devonshire Tea (scones with jam, clotted cream and tea - diet be damned for a day!). And drank in the wonderful sunshine.

Next stop was Katoomba for the obligatory look at the 3 Sisters. I regaled my guest with the mythological origins of the story behind the rock formation, and we took a short hike out to Honeymoon Bridge, defying the steep stone stairs that were built by the Ranger Jim McKay back in god-knows-when! (EDIT: It was started in 1914, then had a break as the project was deemed too expensive - full story here )

We then did a little tourist inspired window shopping on the main street of Leura, which was delightful in itself. Just some of the wares I spotted on our travels are on my Instagram account.

When we finally got home in the evening, I then trotted off to my photography class to learn how to do night photography. We had a great time playing around with street lights, long exposures and painting with light. I'm going to have a lot of fun this week trying out the new skills!

Monday, November 9, 2015

Bees' knees

I am down almost 8kg.

That is equivalent to 4 lots of these babies:

Ain't that great! I need these things to keep me focused and visualising how amazing that is! That has just vanished from my body. Awesome.

But what's even more awesome is that this is the weight that my knees can easily without much effort lift my entire body weight without feeling like they're going to give way. Without any additional vocal assistance from me. Walking down steps is a breeze. It makes me feel my age again, rather than an old person who will never be able to fully squat down to the ground for fear they won't be able to get up again.

Yup. The view from here is pretty great today.

View from my knee

Sunday, November 8, 2015

The colour purple

Sydney in Spring is a veritable bower of jacarandas. The shade of purple is very specific, and very calming.

Today I was surrounded by the Colour Purple.

“I think it pisses God off if you walk by the color purple in a field somewhere and don't notice it. People think pleasing God is all God cares about. But any fool living in the world can see it always trying to please us back.”
Alice Walker, The Color Purple